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Work is disappointing. It didn't help that I wasn't feeling well all this week, but my female coworkers and I aren't clicking at all. I get along well with one of them, and my boss and the manager. Jen is nice an willing to talk to me, especially if I start the conversation. Kelly and Kathy will talk, but they're not as openly friendly, Jess and Anna even less so. I never see AJ, so that's moot, and Aaron's a quiet guy, not very talkative at all. Tristan, the one guy that I got along with well, quit coming even one day a week because his student teacher job turned into a real teacher job when the teacher he was helping went on maternity leave.

I always feel like I'm intruding if I try to join a conversation, and it generally doesn't last if I try to start one. I keep hearing them talk about plans that apparently everyone is invited to except me: Jess's birthday party, Kelly's trip to the snow, Kathy's birthday. I know I'm the new girl and they don't know me very well yet, but it hurts to hear Kelly say, "I want to go to the snow again -- want to go with me tomorrow, Anna?" while she's standing right next to me. Jess talked all about her extensive plans for her birthday party; she was taking a limo to a club with friends and something about VIP roof access or something and several people from work were going... I wanted so much to make friends at work, and after being there for two months I feel like just as much of an outsider as I was on my first day. I just want a few friends that I can see and have drinks and laugh with. Is that too much to ask?